09-18-2020, 11:55 PM
Mattias, this is BEAUTIFUL! Seriously. That cat must have been lucky to have a human like you. 
To be honest, I found myself in a situation very similar to yours several years ago, Mattias. I hated composing, I hated what my music had become. I had become jaded and worn out, in short. I found my solace in writing duets and quartets and other short, "simple" chamber music, only using basic sounds and no attempt at virtual orchestration, and devoted much of my time to improvising, playing, and making sample libraries. I still don't write the same way I used to, but I have found new places in music I enjoy exploring (and of course new hobbies/interests too). Through that I eventually started accepting my shortcomings and the perfectionism and dissatisfaction that stopped me from working has slowly diminished to a... slightly more manageable level, to the point I can write at least simple orchestral music again.
As always I think it's important to give these things time. That said, as you put it, I think once you are bit by the composition bug, it will always come back eventually to bite you again.
(09-18-2020, 07:42 PM)Paul Battersby Wrote: I certainly know what you mean about how long it takes to compose for an orchestra. Perhaps a break will help or perhaps restricting yourself to a small number of instruments for a while would be an option? I've read many times (and experienced it myself) that imposing restrictions can spark creativity.
To be honest, I found myself in a situation very similar to yours several years ago, Mattias. I hated composing, I hated what my music had become. I had become jaded and worn out, in short. I found my solace in writing duets and quartets and other short, "simple" chamber music, only using basic sounds and no attempt at virtual orchestration, and devoted much of my time to improvising, playing, and making sample libraries. I still don't write the same way I used to, but I have found new places in music I enjoy exploring (and of course new hobbies/interests too). Through that I eventually started accepting my shortcomings and the perfectionism and dissatisfaction that stopped me from working has slowly diminished to a... slightly more manageable level, to the point I can write at least simple orchestral music again.
As always I think it's important to give these things time. That said, as you put it, I think once you are bit by the composition bug, it will always come back eventually to bite you again.
Sample library developer, composer, and amateur organologist at Versilian Studios.
